Six drops are hard.
26 October Monday Bank Holiday
I walked up the boreen in a hard drizzle without much vision. I pretended that the rain was giving everything soft edges. Everything was fuzzy but it was fine. I could see the path because I know it so well. I could see the path because the yellow leaves on the ground have made everything look bright. The crabapples were a bit deadly to walk through. It was like walking on ball-bearings. The fallen trees across the path looked more like graceful arches with my impaired vision and I liked the little nod of my head which was needed to pass underneath them. Anyone taller would need to duck but for me it is a nod. The nod is an acknowledging that the trees have re-defined the path. I did not see any people. Oscar joined me for the second half of the walk. I did not need to see any more than I saw.
25 October Sunday
I have been struggling with my vision. I am not allowed to wear my contact lenses. It has been a trying week. My ancient glasses are barely okay for distance but they are hopeless for anything close-up. I have been wearing them for days now. Yesterday I got an emergency pair of prescription glasses for close-up. Taking one pair off and putting the other pair on has been a constant juggling act. That ended late afternoon when I sat down to put in my drops. I stood up after I was finished and I stepped on the distance glasses. They are completely broken. Now I can see up close but I cannot see anything in the distance. I will not be able to drive. I am not sure what I will be able to do.
24 October Saturday
David the Egg Man sold all of his eggs right away. Once again his hens are suffering from the longer dark nights so they are not laying much. He began to pack up his tiny table to put it into his motor and head home early. His table was taken away from him and put into the exact center of the market. A birthday cake was put on the table and he was given a card and a song. Everyone was offered cake and everyone said Happy Birthday or Many Happy Returns. David stood eating his cake and explaining again and again that he had been just about to go home because he had run out of eggs. He was delighted to be the center of attention and everyone was delighted to help him to celebrate turning 84.
23 October Friday
Six drops are hard. Six drops are a lot harder than four drops. Four drops was easy. Morning. Lunchtime. Six o’clock. Bedtime. Six drops spread through the day needs more attention and more remembering. I dot the back of my hand with a marker pen. By bedtime I should have five dots. I have the shadow of yesterday’s drop dots on my hand too. It does not matter at what time I do them. I just have to put drops into my eye six times during a day. The last one never gets marked. There is no reason for me to take a marking pen to bed with me.
22 October Thursday
I went back to the Medical Eye Doctor. A woman in the waiting room spoke about the weather. She said it was a lovely day. She said it was unseasonably warm for the time of year. She said the SuperValu in town was having a Gala Opening on Friday. I did not want to talk and she seemed to run out of things to say after these three things. She did not seem to mind that I was not responsive. I held my book two inches from my face. It was the only way for me to read but it was very dark with my book held so close. When another woman came in the first woman said the same three things and then she went silent again. It was more like a recitation than making conversation.
21 October Wednesday
Next week the country is getting rid of little coins. It has been costing more to produce the small coins than they are worth. One and two cent coins will no longer be made and they will no longer be used. When we pay for something the price will be rounded up to the nearest five cents. Or it will be rounded down to the nearest five cents. Eighty-seven will be rounded to eighty-five. Eighty-eight will be rounded to ninety. Everyone seems pleased with this development. I find it a little sad but no doubt I will get used to it and forget that it was ever different.
20 October Tuesday
I went to get my eye looked at yesterday. The specialist had a sign outside which announced her as a Medical Eye Doctor. Her office was huge. There were several different chairs in there as well as various stools on wheels and a bed. There were many many different kinds of machines. There were many kinds of charts and posters about eyes and diagramming eyes. I had never seen so much eye-related paraphernalia. I was in there for a long time so I had a lot of time to look around. The doctor did lots of tests and when she was nearly done she asked if I had arrived by car. I said that I had, so she asked where I lived. She said that I should not be driving at all but since there were never more than a few tractors on that road, she would send me on my way without worry.
19 October Monday
I have been moaning. I have been moaning a lot. The cows up in Joe’s field are moaning and I have become obsessed with trying to make the same sound. I started to think of it as lowing but now I am convinced it is just a moaning. I moan when I am outside and I moan when I am walking. I moan in the house. It is a deep in the throat kind of sound. It is a drawn out kind of sound. I think I am sounding pretty good. I am now trying to get a cow to respond to my moan. I do not know what their moan means so I do not know if answering is even an issue.